I do not wish to trade anything for what I already have. Every time I look into myself I see so many desires lingering on and I tell you I would definitely not be ready to give away something like the Sudarshan Kriya even if I was guaranteed that all those desires would get fulfilled in a moment.

This actually means that Whatever I want is less than what I already have and yet I keep wanting it.. why? What is it that I want? Every desire fulfilled would create a tingling pleasant sensation somewhere in the body for some time and then what? Is Life only about fulfilling desires? Can life be something more than craving for pleasant sensations? Pleasant sensations have been experienced a thousand times. DO they intensify my ignorance or saturate me?

what in me experiences? Who is the experiencer? what is the nature of that something that is experiencing the experience? If there is something that stays untouched how does it anyway matter what I experience? How does it matter whether any desire gets fulfilled or not?

If its True that I am "that" then however "this" is, how much does it matter? What is this whole drama of craving and resisting?

Looks like this So Ham leads to so what?!

Love
Rashmin.


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11 comments:

    vivek said...

    :) JGD

  1. ... on November 17, 2008 at 5:08 AM  
  2. Random Reflections said...

    beautiful Rashmin !

    This actually means that Whatever I want is less than what I already have and yet I keep wanting it.. why?

    exactly my sentiment except I could not have said it as well .

    Jai Guru Dev.

  3. ... on November 17, 2008 at 10:48 AM  
  4. Aparna said...

    Great!!! :) Great quest!

  5. ... on November 17, 2008 at 11:53 AM  
  6. vishal said...

    jgd, wow ,for a moment i felt as if i was reading YOGA VASHISHTHA. great ,really great question.

  7. ... on November 17, 2008 at 3:53 PM  
  8. DD said...

    leaves me speechless.. :)
    wonderful to the very core. makes me come back and read it again and again. will cherish it for a long time. thanks :)

  9. ... on November 17, 2008 at 6:53 PM  
  10. Sunand K Nambiar said...

    OMG!! no words...

  11. ... on November 18, 2008 at 9:18 AM  
  12. bhaw said...

    Dearest Bhaiya

    **Every desire fulfilled would create a tingling pleasant sensation somewhere in the body for some time and then what? Is Life only about fulfilling desires? Can life be something more than craving for pleasant sensations?

    How do you do you put things so simply???
    How do you make me feel I am there with you???

    These little reminders of yours here and there have such beautiful effect on me!

    Also, I keep reminding myself what is said in Ashtavakra Geeta, something like..you have been here so many times as kings, man, woman, have had so many children,

    Jai Gurudev

  13. ... on November 19, 2008 at 1:15 AM  
  14. Hetal said...

    :)
    jgd!
    this is beautiful!
    hetal

  15. ... on November 19, 2008 at 3:53 PM  
  16. Abhay Karnataki said...

    And amidst all activities, contemplating thus,in the land of Europe, Rashmin got enlightened ! :)

  17. ... on November 19, 2008 at 6:52 PM  
  18. Sunita said...

    I keep getting desire after desire but no remorse! I realized after reading this post that you must have very few desires to be able to observe them and realize what a botheration they are....whereas for me I am surrounded by desires on all sides, I don't notice them many times.

    But I now realize what a hinderance desires are to achieve that peace of mind, stillness and love. Nothing in this world in fact can be traded off for love yet our monkey mind is always looking for some small fulfillment! Need to work on cleaning my cobwebs!

    Thanks for enlightening post.

  19. ... on November 21, 2008 at 9:51 AM  
  20. nitu said...

    hey rashmin u r wonderfull...would love to meet u.....me in delhi plz do let me know whenever u r in town

  21. ... on November 26, 2008 at 1:28 AM